I should have said no

Posted Thursday, December 9, 2010 by catherine
There are a lot of events which occurred in my life that I seemed to be so helpless. I know for certain that I can't enumerate all but plain to say, they're numerous.

Just as I don't know how to see things yet before they occur and end up watching all the things I build up crashing down.

To my great dismay I am now in total dilemma. I don't know what to do. So help me God.

Our Love's a Perfect Crime

Posted Wednesday, December 8, 2010 by catherine
Everyday but all I have is time
our love's a perfect time


Just put your hands on me. I wanna reiterate this to those with dirty minds. 

Remembering my sweet escapades with Yancee last summer; kids in love rather, and my fairytale life with Jasper just two months ago--hang me.

Whenever Cheeno tells Japhet the reason why I suddenly turned slim to fat, i feel guilty. I know Dadi Linkz will help me out with this.

Love: like not everyone knows is an offense-in a major (major) way. I loved, was disturbed, ruined but now bouncing back--alive. Those stale memories should I guess be buried. With much respect to Jasper's married life and to his wife Kaye, I now proclaim my moving on. Bye Jazz. Farewell to our petty crimes. Goodbye to the laptop, Aphone, keyboard, C.Raine electric guitar, platinum banded ring, cellphone, chuck taylor emo shoes, and your family which you gave me when we were still together. You know why I returned all of those. I know you'll understand, but one thing's for sure, I'll be selfish enough not to give back our memories.
Though now that I am still torn between loving and missing you, I know deep within me that you'll be happy with Kaye and the family you are about to have in a few months time. My stays in Cebu were worth the while. I'll miss your family and I extend my thanks to them for treating me like a part of the family. I don't hold grudges among you and Kaye for what had happened. I know it was forth coming. As a girl, it would be sad if the father of my child leaves me and that would happen to Kaye if I didn't let you go. So I am letting you go.

I don't know if it is still right to feel this way until now. But give me a break, those things happened so fast. Singing your wedding song stabbed me--bloody hell, but i would have saved the tears. I'll miss you. Let's be friends and be mature enough to face our lives without each other. 

Goodbye. See you soon. And to Kaye, love Jazz with all your heart. Be a good wife and a good mother to your future child. I'll be fine.